big changes
Well, I figured it out.
I don’t know how it happened, but something clicked, and suddenly everything is right.
Remember my drought of ideas? How I struggled to muster up my go-power? How I was afraid of leaving my comfort zone? Or how about my inability to make big decisions without stewing over them f o r e v e r first?
I hesitate to say this because it sounds a little foolhardy, but I think I’m over it. At least for now. I know I’m not a different person—I still have the same personality flaws and weaknesses—but in some small way, I am different. Less hesitant, less fearful, more optimistic, more willing to step into the unknown. I found my momentum again. And let me tell you, the momentum is picking up.
Big changes are happening in my life. And what’s better, they’re big changes that I feel excited and confident about. I should probably admit that sometimes my confidence wanes, but those times always pass if I don’t cling to them. And since I’m being honest, you have to know that there’s still a little fear and nervousness with me in all this, but they don’t control me. Plus, I think those feelings are understandable. Especially considering what we’re doing.
We’re moving. To Seattle. That’s a place I’ve never been. We’re going without a place to live or a job lined up. Bryant and I are packing up our little cave of an apartment and simply driving away. I guess we’ll figure it all out when we get there. Oh yeah, did I mention, all this is happening really soon? Cause it is. In just over three weeks. Oh yeah, did I mention, I’m going back to school? Cause I am. Class starts the first week of January.
Oh, and did I mention, I couldn’t be happier. :)
Category: hopes, travels, we live here now, what's inside 4 comments »
November 19th, 2009 at 1:43 pm
So happy about this :) Good luck to both of you…
November 19th, 2009 at 2:54 pm
wow, that’s exciting! I’m kind of jealous. Make sure you “Do the Puyallup” next fall.
November 19th, 2009 at 4:20 pm
Bryant told me the news a few days ago. How exciting!
November 19th, 2009 at 6:16 pm
moving to seattle!! best of luck. we love it there and are hoping to find ourselves out that direction sooner or later. have fun!!!!